I am feeling very thankful for my job lately! It’s starting to really hit me that taking care of my baby full-time is my purpose for this family. I’m confident God placed me in this position for a reason, and I couldn’t be happier with what I’m doing. Although there are times I’m not sure what I’m doing, it’s the first job I actually feel like I’m doing really well in, and the payoff is beyond measurable! Teaching 3rd grade brought me a lot of joy and the reward was also beyond the amount of money I received, but it never satisfied me like this does.
The love for a child is absolutely ridiculous! It sickens my stomach to think of anything bad happening to Beckham. It saddens me that he will make bad choices. It scares me to wonder how best to teach him what’s right and wrong. It makes me wonder “what will MY child do?” I am HONORED to have been given a son, let alone Beckham, to raise and mold in the image of Christ! Men have a different and unique role in this world, and God chose Ryan and I to raise one! To raise a boy to become a MAN and lead others. I look at his innocent face and realize he is counting on me to show him the right ways. He didn’t ask God for Ryan or I to be his parents, but God knew WE would be best for him. God is my Father, my Creator, and not only do I want to, but I have to teach him Christian ways – How to love others, how to choose wisely, how to stand firm, how to walk down that narrow path that most others will not be on! And will continuously pray that God will take hold of his life and Beckham will turn to Him! What an honor! What a blessing!
Motherhood has also shown me a glimpse of what God went through when he sacrificed Jesus for OUR sins. I could in no way imagine giving up Beckham for someone else’s sin! I am so thankful I was saved and will enjoy the wonders of Heaven! I’ll end on this funny note: I imagine Heaven in so many ways, but I keep thinking that I’ll be sitting on clouds and grab a handful of the one I’m sitting on and say “brownie” as I pop it into my mouth…and wa la, it tastes like a brownie! Can’t wait to find out!
|First time holding my son!|
|Just gets better each day!|