It’s been a super busy time of year surprisingly, and I’ve realized some things!
First, with all this hoopla over Chick-fil-a and elections coming up, facebook has blown up with religious and political comments and opinions. I absolutely believe everyone has the right to free speech, so that doesn’t bother me at all. But I have realized that the beliefs others have that disagree with God’s REALLY bothers me! I mean it really bothers me. I want to say something and fight back, but I finally realized I should be asking myself how Jesus would handle it. I doubt he would yell back at someone and get angry that their beliefs were different than his. I do believe you should stand up for God’s beliefs though. Jesus loved everyone, while still holding firm to what was right! He truly is perfect! When I saw hundreds at Chick-fil-a to support the company, I honestly was really happy. But then I started asking myself, if Jesus were here on Earth, what would he have done? I honestly don’t know the answer to that (I went but did not dine there because the line was too long and I had Beckham), but it opened my eyes to realize that trying to be exactly like Jesus is the goal here on Earth. I’m a strong believer in Christ and try very hard to follow his rules, but sometimes I think that’s all I’m doing…just trying to follow His rules and not spending enough time LOVING on believers and non-believers and showing them what Jesus is really like. When people find out I’m a believer, I want them to say, “she has something I want!” Instead if they see a judgemental sinner, why would they want Jesus in their life too?
Second, I have realized that my work outside the house has just manifested itself inside the home. I laugh at how I use to picture life “at home.” June Cleaver vacuuming in her sparkly clean home ,with dinner cooking as her kids and husband happily walked in the door. Oh with a dress on and a pearl necklace. Hahahaha! My mom used to tell me, “Just wait till you become a mom and you will definitely not be all dolled up when Ryan comes home.” Ok mom, you were right! When you’re work place is inside your home, you very easily SEE everything that needs to be done at home and with your children. So my projects I used to work on for school are now my projects for home and kids. Trying to juggle working with Beckham, cleaning, cooking, studying the Word, working out, and finishing all my new projects keeps me busier than I ever have been! BUT I am enjoying it much more! Ugh…maybe I’m obsessed with my baby too much! Don’t get me wrong, it’s tough, and sometimes I count down the minutes when Ryan walks in the door so I can cook dinner, but anyone with kids knows there’s no greater reward than watching your child grow!
|Oh look she’s cooking with a CLEAN kitchen! Ha!
Lastly, I’ve realized it is never going to be perfect! Like I mentioned above, juggling all the responsibilities of a full-time mom is super hard and will never be perfect! God placed me in this position for a reason and will provide me the tools to raise Beckham, so I need not worry and know a lot of others feel similar, both full-time moms and career moms. Time is flying with Beckham and I know he will be away from me all day before I know it, so I will try to sit back and enjoy his good and bad behavior! 🙂
|That’s pretty perfect! 🙂