Day 7–Fear

Today’s topic for Blog Everyday in May is “thing(s) you are most afraid of.” I hate to admit this, but I think I’m a bit of a fearful person. I know that’s bad, considering my God is in control, but it’s something I’ve struggled with my entire life. Watching Criminal Minds does not help the situation either. I’m afraid of two things!

I’m embarrassingly afraid of bugs, particularly cockroaches. If you live in Texas, you have most likely seen the biggest water bugs (aka cockroaches) living on this planet. They’re freaking ridiculous and FLY! And of course, the human body is like a magnet for them. Gross. Disgusting. Something I’m very afraid of. If you are with me outside and a bug is nearby, you will be so embarrassed to be seen with me. I can assure you I will freak out and make a scene. I HATE drawing attention to myself, but in this case, I do not give a care at all. Sitting with me at a summer baseball game? Yea, embarrassing. Crickets attacking you under the lights. You should see me in the grocery store parking lot at night in the summer. Same deal. Needless to say, I’m afraid of bugs. *I’m sorry I couldn’t include a picture…it creeped me out!

More than that though, something I’m most afraid of is how my son will turn out. I’m afraid I will mess up and cause him harm. Not physically, but spiritually. The great thing about this fear is that I can trust and rely on God to help me parent him. I don’t think anything brings you closer to God than having a child. It’s all about him now and it’s MY job to help him come to know Christ. I can’t make that choice for him, but I can definitely lead him and pray he takes that step! I love this verse: “Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.” ~Proverbs 22:6

My chunky monkey at 8 months. I think he looks like he’s talking to God in this picture.